shades of grey...

...do you ever stop and look at the world around you... and think I am so lucky to be here...

...I never really made the time for it before... but I try very hard to appreciate it every chance I get now...

...we spend most of our time in a routine of getting up, going to work, running around with the kids, cooking, cleaning, sitting in traffic, stressing, hurting, mourning, wanting more in life...

...and we end up forgetting to just simply look up... open our eyes... and see how wonderful life can be... and how beautiful the world around us really is...

...not everything in life is black and white... there are shades of grey surrounding us everywhere...

...and sometimes you feel like the whole world is going to come crashing down on top of you...

...and sometimes all you want is a bit of piece and quiet... or even just for world to stop for 5 minutes so you can catch your breath...

...I am in this frame of mind alot lately... and am struggling with a lot of hurt at the moment... trying to deal with feelings of anger and failure...

...and this is why I have written this blog... these photo's are of good memories of mine and they remind me of things I like to do...

...these photo's remind me of the places I like to go to clear my head and ease the hurt...

...I can sit and watch the ocean for hours at a time... I find watching water so peaceful and relaxing...

...I love going to the beach with my missus and my son... to taste the salty air on my tongue and feel the fresh sea breeze on my face...

... life is always full of challenges and trying times... and it is hard to always find the positives in the path that you take...

...I am not sure which direction this path  is taking me at this point in my life... but I find myself wanting to go to one of these places, just to sit, watch and think...

...if nothing else I just want this blog today to be like a diary entry for my son...

...one day in the future you may sit there and wonder if I missed you all the time we were unable to be together...

...and I just want you to know that it breaks my heart every day... and I miss of you all the time... I am sorry I could not be there... I love you Andrew... you are my son and I miss you so much... 10/05/2011